I'm still here. These past few days have been very tough. Today, I couldn't spend any appreciable time with the kids without crying. I just want to lock myself in my room. It's just all so surreal... I just can't get my head around the fact that she is gone. I still see her walking in to my office to chat or smiling as we play with the kids. I wasn't ready for this ... for how hard it is... I thought that I'd been through it already while she was in Hospice ... I was wrong.
Go kiss those kids and your honey ... how long has it been?
Troy.
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Dear Troy,
It has been only a short time since she has gone Home. Give yourself time to cry, to go through the grieving process. It is going to be a difficult road ahead. Try to enjoy the holidays with your girls and wrap your arms around them because they both are her too. The hurt will ease and it will get easier but only time will heal your pain. She was a gift from God and He will get you through this horrible time.
You and your family are in our prayers daily. Keep your head high but let yourself grieve. You are a strong man, a wonderful Father and a wonderful Husband.
God Bless you.
Troy,
We're still here too...still thinking about you and the girls all the time. And, I'm hugging and kissing my family much more because of you. I know the next couple of days will be really, really tough. I pray that you will find some peace and comfort in the new year.
Your neighbors and friends, Dana and Kevin Gittings
Dear Troy,
My heart aches for you and your girls. Know that amidst the business and stress of the season, you are in my every day thoughts. Even though I have never met you or Hyatt, I think of you as family. I check the blog daily as I am so concerned about you. Please let God comfort you and hold you in his arms. Wishing you many blessings this Christmas season and joy in 2009. Believe in the goodness of the Lord at this difficult time in your life.
Thinking of you and praying for healing of your heart.
Love from Phoenix, AZ
Dear Troy:
It seems impossible that anyone could prepare themselves for what you, your family and girls have been through. We read your posts, but we can't put wrap our minds around what you're feeling.
Please know, that you will be continually covered in prayer through this difficult journey.
Love,
Cheri and Ron Cooke
The Villages, FL
We are all thinking about you every single day Troy. If you ever need anything just say the word.
Eric Chapman
I'm still here praying and will continue.
I have been thinking about you and your family the last few days. I know it's so hard this time of the year, or any day for that matter. Just know that Hyatt is living on through your kids. When they kiss you on your cheek or say they love you, know it's Hyatt in there helping. She's still there walking in your office as your guardian angel. Your connection with her will never be gone. She lives on in those two adorable girls of yours, and in your heart. Just know she got the best of both world... She's living with Jesus, and able to care for her family. *hugs* We are thinking of you.
My family continues to pray for you and your girls. We are members of St. Mary's and have kept up with your blog. I kiss my daughter more and my husband more. This is because of you.
Prayers of thanksgiving keep me on top of my sadness. Losses occur in many forms and the feelings are even more profound during the holidays. Thank you, Lord, for today I am blessed with...
Merry Christmas
Katie, Neal and Abigail Clinton
Troy,
When I was grieving the loss of my newborn daughter, my pastor told me that grief is the process of letting go of a 'hoped-for-future'. That phrase was the only thing that made sense to me at the time.
God is with you always, even if you cannot feel his presence at times.
I am praying for your peace.
Troy and family, thinking of you during the holidays and every day. Hyatt is with you in everything you do for the girls, so may you enjoy the holidays and rejoice in the memories that she left with you. From reading your posts, she left you a life time of beautiful memories. Merry Christmas.
Thanks Troy. I was so glad to see a post as I think of your family daily and nightly. And Hyatt is there with you, and we are still here too. Wishing you and your girls a Christmas of magic and healing.
Sam
Troy, I never met you or Hyatt but feel like you have both changed my life/ Found your blog through a friend and have checked it daily since months ago. My heart breaks for you and the girls. I know that there are no words to heal the wounds other than I am so sorry. As a young mom of 3 I truly can't imagine. Please know that people all over are praying for you. Know that the Lord is close. Ready to listen. Ready to love on you and the girls at all times. Praying for you to have a blessed Christmas. God bless.
Troy, you and your girls are in my thoughts daily. You are a wonderful, strong man and great father. Let yourself grieve and I pray G-d gives you some comfort and eases your burden. G-d bless you and your family.
Ugh, I'm so sorry. Having Christmas happen right now must be the worst -- talk about salt on an open wound.
We're still here for you. Feel free to call if you want to talk to someone...
Praying for you, a stranger I've come to know, during this holiday season. I hope that knowing so many people from all over the U.S. are thinking of you brings you sufficient comfort during this time.
Thank you for reminding me of all of my own blessings. Merry Christmas!
a stranger in ohio
I have been thinking of you and your family a lot during this first Christmas without Hyatt. I cannot imagine the grief you are experiencing but look back and cling to the original reason for Christmas - its the birth of the child that ensured Hyatt's place in Heaven, where she looks down on you with love for all you are doing for your family.
I think of you and your children so often. Just one step at a time will get you through this terrible period. You are in my prayers even though we are complete strangers. Just keep loving Hyatt and those dear children.
I. Payne
Troy,
I have had you, the girls, Jane and Herman on my mind all day today, as I do every day, but especially today. I attended a funeral of a dear friend 14 years ago at Christmas, and the pastor made this comment that has stuck with me and meant so much to me after my mom passed away...Just think, Hyatt will celebrate Christmas tomorrow in the VERY PRESENCE of JESUS, the One whose birth we celebrate through faith. She is right there WITH HIM. What a grand and glorious thing that is.
Pleas know that my prayers are with you constantly, as are many others from the Greenville SC area. Love to you and the girls!
Cousin Marie
Troy,
I have had you, the girls, Jane and Herman on my mind all day today, as I do every day, but especially today. I attended a funeral of a dear friend 14 years ago at Christmas, and the pastor made this comment that has stuck with me and meant so much to me after my mom passed away...Just think, Hyatt will celebrate Christmas tomorrow in the VERY PRESENCE of JESUS, the One whose birth we celebrate through faith. She is right there WITH HIM. What a grand and glorious thing that is.
Please know that my prayers are with you constantly, as are many others from the Greenville SC area. Love to you and the girls!
Cousin Marie
Grieving takes a long, LONG time. The first year will be the hardest. All the anniversaries (her birthday, your wedding anniversary, holidays, other special days) will be hard. This is normal. I hope your memories of the good times you shared will help you and keep you company as you grieve. Don't be afraid to ask for help. I'm so sorry you have this pain, but God is there in the midst of the sorrow and struggle. Reach out to your church family, find a grief support group, get the help you need to go through 1 day at a time.
We're still here thinking of you and the kids, praying for peace and comfort.
When you get a chance, go to your room and lock the door. Cry as hard as you need to and always remember the Lord is holding on to you and your precious little ones. He will not give you more than you can handle, he's with you even if you can't feel him. It's HIS promise to us.
God bless you!
The Corzine's
Bourbonnais, IL
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