I struggle with not being able to have told her I loved her - with the thoughts that she was frustrated with me when she had her cardiac arrest - what if her last thoughts were frustration with me? What if she woke up enough to realize that she needed help, but I wasn't there ...
It occurred to me this morning that part of believing in the Resurrection is the understanding that Hyatt, while not present physically, is still present spiritually. If that is the case, then she has heard and felt my love for her and she understands it all.
But there is the rub, I'm having a hard time trusting that she can feel it.... so I think part of the difficulty here is that I am having a bit of a crisis of faith. I know I need to believe, but sometimes I just can't see it or feel it.... and that scares me.
So please say a quick prayer for me... and for the girls...
Troy.
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Troy, It is hard to have the 'faith' so early on. After my mom died I felt so hopeless. But I kept myself open to the spiritual 'thereafter' and she did reach out to me. It was a bit startling, but it was very reassuring to me. I pray Hyatt is able to show you as well that she is with you every day, every moment. Be patient, she will show herself if you remain open to it.
Troy
You and your family will be in our prayers. Hold on to your faith and know that with God all things are possible. Our priest said at church last Sunday during his homiy, that where there is the deepest darkness there is always the light of Christ to be found. Take on day at a time .
God bless you and the girls always.
I'm sure Hyatt knows how much you love her.
I can only imagine how difficult this time is for you. Your faith is strong & it will see you through this dark time.
I think at some point in our lives we may all question our faith. Please don't be so hard on yourself. I pray that you may feel the love & peace of Christ & the prescence of Hyatt in your heart.
My prayers are with you, the girls & your family.
God Bless You.
Faith is ongoing. It comes and it goes. It's strong and it struggles. I feel this with the loss of my mother. She never knew my daughter.
Hyatt is with you as Christ is with you. Never fail to believe this. Your lack of faith comes from you alone. We are all here to back you up when you come up short. It is very hard right now. It will be very hard for a long time, but we will all still be right here by your side. That is faith.
Syd and Bek will not remember after some time, but you and your family will always be there to tell them them the stories and live the faith. Keep sight of that strenghth. Rely on us when all else fails or is weakened. There will be weak times. That is when you need us the most.
Thank you for sharing your faith with us and allowing us to care for you.
We are holding all of you tonight. Merry Christmas Nolan Family.
Clinton Family
I think it's very normal to have the feelings you are having. You've experienced a traumatic loss and it is to be expected. Please be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to run through the gamut of feelings. Please know that there are people around the world praying for you. I promise you will get through this, just allow our prayers to carry you while you are trying to heal. God bless you and your girls.
Your faith is there.....your feelings are real.....you are still human. Love the Lord your God with all of your heart, with all of your soul, with all of your mind, and with all of your strength. You will make her proud by hanging in there and taking care of those beautiful girls!
Troy, we have never met, but I am praying for you and your kids. I am praying for your strength and peace of mind. God bless you and keep and make His face shine upon you and give you peace.
Merry Christmas to you and your children!
vTroy, as I was sitting and watching my son open his gifts, I was also missing the son we lost over 3 years ago. I have a very real and personal relationship with God yet I too have struggled with my faith and trusting God. The struggle is very normal. Just cry out and tell him everything!!!! I mean everything. I am praying for you and the girls this morning and I won't stop! Love and Hugs, GarvyS
Dear Troy,
Merry Christmas to you and the girls! I am sorry for what you are feeling but can understand as well. Do not beat yourself up, you have done everything you can do. Take the time now to heal. You will go through many different phases of your grieving process. Please know that you are still in my thoughts.
What you are feeling is so normal! There is nothing anyone can do or say that is going to change things and that is what is so unfair! I, myself, went through a very tough time 4 years ago at Christmas time. My husband committed suicide 9 days before Christmas. Christmas came anyway and we did the best we could. One blessing was that we were all together! (our 3 daughters and their husbands and grandchildren). We would not have all been together otherwise, because they live in different parts of the country. I never would have gotten through that time without my faith, family and friends.
I don't know you, Troy, but you seem to be a man of great faith. Hang onto that....I promise you, that is what will get you through. It is ok to be angry and feel as though things will never be the same....God never leaves, though. I chose to ride the grief rollercoaster and try to look for blessings out of what happened. God HAS blessed me and He is blessing you. My heart aches for you and your girls...just know that you have so many people who care. May you have a blessed and peaceful Christmas.
Troy - I'm not sure what I can say to make you feel better. As a wife, who yes, get frustrated with her husband, I feel certain that Hyatt has not gone to Heaven with her negative thoughts towards you. One day you'll be reunited, but until then, I'm sure the grieving process will be difficult, and only time, and faith, will heal you. I'm praying for you and your girls. I'm sure today is incredibly difficult, but think of how glorious it is for Hyatt to be celebrating Jesus, with Jesus!
With my warmest thoughts -
Another stranger
I think there was a time when she realized things were wrong (either during the arrest or while in her coma) and she probably had the exact same thoughts you're having... I shoulda said, I shoulda done, I wish...
I have had grand mal seizures before, which is as close to dying as I'll have until it's my time, and there is a long period of time (only second or two in real life) where things slow down to such an amazingly slow pace. You do a lot of thinking and reviewing in those frozen moments. I'm sure she forgave you, and wished she'd have the chance to get things right with you again in her frozen moments.
Let your guilt go, it'll do you nothing good or healthy. The sooner you can let it go, the sooner you can hold on to all that was right in your relationship and your lives. And that is the stuff that will help you survive this ordeal, and it's what she would want you to hang on to.
Troy, I have a little girl who attends HBCP and I have been following your blog from the begining. I just want you to know that like many others you and Hyatt have given me a new persective on life. My husband received an email a long time ago that stated,"God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go." Thank you for allowing us, those who don't even know you, to be a part of your life.
Merry Christmas! You and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Troy,
You are such an inspiration to be so transparent with your feelings and struggles. Thank you for being real with everyone so we can pray for you in specific ways. I have not been in your shoes, but I think that what you are feeling is TOTALLY normal and a part of the grief process. It is when you question your faith that you come to truly discover Christ and learn that He IS sufficient in every circumstance. If you never questioned anything you wouldn't be truly seeking and leaning on Christ to lead you. Believe me, He IS real and IS carrying you during this difficult time (Remember Footprints in the sand?) I will be praying for you and the girls, but please if you aren't already, get a Bible (preferably a Study Bible with additional commentary)and look up verses in the concordance... about Jesus being our Comforter, about grief, about whatever topic speaks to you. Then keep a journal of the verses that especially speak to you and go back to them when you are having a particularly hard time. I went through a different crisis, but being able to hear what God had to say to ME through the Bible deepened my faith and allowed me to say for certain that Christ is real and loves ME. Before that, I learned that in church, from my parents, etc, but until you rely on God just to get through day by day and feel His sustaining presence, your faith isn't YOUR faith. I know you're at the most difficult time right now, and you have people praying for you while you are going through it, but I pray that someday you will be able to look back on this time and be thankful for the way you came to know Christ as your ROCK.
As far as Hyatt being frustrated that night or if she did wake up, don't focus on that. Christ is bigger than that. Every married couple gets frustrated with each other at times and no one can predict a medical crisis like that and magically be there. Hyatt is at total peace now and happy in Heaven. I can't begin to know all the wonderful things about Heaven, but I truly believe that God would not let a child of His spend eternity thinking about one last spat with their spouse... I think when we are in Heaven we will be above all that stupid stuff...we will dwell on the blessings Christ gave us during our time on the earth, probably the most important of which are the rich relationships He blesses us with. It is my true belief and understanding that Jesus does not want you to be caught in guilt... once you have asked for Christ's forgiveness, it is DONE. See Philippians 3:12-14 and Philippians 4:8-9. The notes in my study Bible for those verses are helpful as well...
I will be praying for you all. Please continue to keep us posted and tell your mom I will call her next week when I get back in town. I hope Sidney and Bekah had a fun Christmas.
Kim Nussbaum
Troy,
Now you are in the beginning of the healing process and sometimes
it is very hard to feel god. He is with you and the girls. you will someday look back at this time in your life and realize that god was really with you all the time.
I check your blog daily to see if you have written anything so that I might know how to pray for you. My nephew lives in your neighborhood so I have read the blog from the very beginning.
Troy ,merry christmas and know that you have changed peoples lives by opening up your journey through this blog. May god richy bless you and hold you in his loving arms.I will pray for your empty and hurting heart . I to am so sad for you...Just know that people are thinking and praying for you and your family.
Merry Christmas
Dear Troy,
I live in Corpus Christi, Texas and probably will never meet you this side of Heaven, but I have read this blog just about every day since Sept. 17th when my sister who lives in Braemar sent me the link. I pray for you and your girls daily; I know you can feel those prayers working. HANG ONTO THAT FAITH!!! Remember that very little of what we believe as Christians "makes sense." We "know" that Jesus both God and man came to earth as a real, live baby, grew up a "regular" person (minus the sins), suffered and died to save us from our sins, and ROSE FROM THE DEAD to conquer death. THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!!! Who would believe such a fantastic story??? But we believe it, and we share it every chance we get because of our FAITH. We KNOW it's true because of FAITH. And we KNOW that because of Christ's death and resurrection, we will meet all fellow-believers in Heaven with Him; we KNOW that by FAITH. From your blog, I trust that you and Hyatt are both believers and have given your lives to Jesus. If that is the case, SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU and will be ready to greet you when AND ONLY WHEN your purpose here on earth is fulfilled. What an amazing woman she must be to have completed God's purpose for her life in such a short time. I'm still praying; you keep your FAITH.
Faith is sometimes one of the hardest things to find or understand in times of hardship, but always remember that Hyatt knows your love for her! Keep up the Faith and know that you will be lead in the right direction, by not only God but Hyatt as well. God Bless and Merry Christmas!
Troy,
Of course Hyatt was frustrated with you. We do that in relationships--we frustrate and become frustrated--because we love and are comfortable enough to be ourselves. As a wife and mother who becomes frustrated too, I promise that it does not stamp out the love. She knows. She forgives. Most importantly, she loves.
I am praying for you and your daughters. Hang in there.
I so believe that Hyatt knows and continues to know and feel your love for her. I will continue to pray for you--that's what a community of faith does, prays for each other when we feel there is nothing left within ourselves.
I, too, struggle with unconditional faith. I'm praying for you to be comforted by God (and Hyatt) which I also would need during such a tragedy.
a stranger in ohio
Troy,
Three years ago, I found myself in the same position you are in now. My husband passed away, leaving a 5year old son and a 2 year old daughter. I totally understand your "crisis of faith" comment. You are probably asking yourself "How could god take her away from these two beautiful girls?" or "How could god let this happen?" There are many more questions I am sure. One thing I do know is that God does not pick a weak person to take on this challenge. Yes, three years ago I will admit it I was very weak. Learning to live again was the biggest challenge so far. At one point, I actually think I taught myself how to breathe again! =-) You will learn more about yourself then you can imagine. My best advice is that life does not have to be perfect, nor should it! All kids want is to be loved and to feel safe. I wish I could tell you that the lump in your throat goes away, it doesnt! =-( It does get better over time, thats something to look forward to! The girls will get you threw it. Also, your belief and faith does come back. She knows how much you love her. I don't even know you and I know.
I look out of my Family Room windows and Pray for you. I do the dishes at my sink and glance out the window, and say a prayer for you.
I too, can't believe that it happened. I miss her; when I look out my windows, I pray that I'll see her letting out Kayla.
I can't believe it, Troy. I think of you and the girls and Hyatt EVERY SINGLE DAY. I just can't believe your loss and I can't believe our (all of her friends) loss.
I can't imagine what Sid's B-day was like...I can't imagine what Christmas was like...what will NYE bring to you? More tears, surely.
Oh Troy... I'm just so terribly sorry for what you are going through... and as a mommie, I'm so devestated for the loss that Hyatt had at losing her sweet children.
Sending you big hugs across the fence. Much Love,
Margaret, Rich, Lindsey & Jamie Asbell (and Miller too)
Troy - I am not surprised to hear that you are struggling - it seems "normal" that now would be the most difficult time - after the initial shock & taking care of Hyatt now you are left to learn how to live without her.
I looked online for some support groups because I thought it might be valuable for you to find some people with similar experiences to talk to. Here are a few:
http://www.griefshare.org/
http://www.griefnet.org/support/sg2.html
http://www.groww.org/
I also saw that your local hospice is a good place to look for bereavement support.
I will continue to pray for you & your family every day. I have faith in you and your strength - I know you will give your girls the life that Hyatt wanted them to have.
I understand how you are feeling. Many other people have felt the same way. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
I do not know much, but i am quite certain that Hyatt's last thoughts had nothing to do with her frustration with you.
I feel so desperately for you and your girls, but especially for you. You and Hyatt loved each other so deeply, that much is plain as day to this stranger.
Unfortunately, if any of us hope to heal, we have to go through our feelings. there's no jumping over them, going around them or ducking under....If we want to heal, we must just go through them.
God will take care of you, he is doing so right now.
Sam
I am saying a prayer Troy . . . and I really, really do understand.
Diann
Dear Troy,
I read a Washington Post article that said 92% of polled Americans believe in God or a universal spirit. Isn't that amazing...with as much as we like to debate issues...that almost all Americans believe? I have had experiences, and know many others who have as well, that clearly indicate the soul lives on...
You may be asking Hyatt to send you signs that you feel you are not receiving. Sometimes you may feel her as close as a whisper, and other times you may wonder, "where is she?" Remain open to all of the ways she is with you--rather than looking for specifics. Pay particular attention to the things Sid and Bek say (or will say) as they grow up...sometimes children have a clearer connection to Heaven. You will find Hyatt in places expected and unexpected.
You will both question and lean on your faith as you move through your grief process...and in the end, you will find that faith wins. Be patient with yourself.
There are so many prayers going out for you and your girls.
We all struggle with the “what ifs”, Troy. I think about when my Mom and Dad were both gravely ill, and how I longed to have one more minute to share my thoughts with them after they were gone. I eventually came to know it wasn’t possible and I learned to channel those desires onto others who would benefit from my love.
The Bible says that to be absent from the body is to be in the presence of the Lord. The moment dear Hyatt took her last breath, she was in her glorified body standing before Jesus. We can only imagine the joy that filled her heart and soul when she saw Him face to face. We're praying that this vision in your mind’s eye will bring you comfort.
The Lord will reveal Himself through his WORD the Bible, to you. “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the WORD of God.” (Romans 10:17)
It’s always easier to believe when we can see and feel. Faith is a growing experience and from all that you have shared with all of us, you DO have faith. We all need a faith refresher at times and I’m believing that renewal will be yours. “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”(Hebrews 11:1)
When we get to Heaven the Bible also tells us there is no pain or sorrow. Hyatt had the best Christmas of her life this year, because she was in the company of the Angels praising her Lord and spending it with our Heavenly Father. She’s not weeping, she feels no pain or sadness. She’s where we all long to be when our lives on earth are over.
Dear Troy, we pray for you and your precious girls every single day. We pray for peace and comfort for all of you and that you will soon feel the restoration of the joy that can come only from the Lord. “Happiness” depends on Happen-ings. Joy comes from Him.
Troy,
You and the girls are in our thoughts and prayers daily. You are going through one of the toughest things a person has to cope with, but take heart, your Heavenly Father and Hyatt are there to help and will be there at all times for you and the girls.
May you feel and be comforted by God's presence daily especially in this season of His Son's birth.
Love,
Uncle Vince, Aunt Debbbie, Matt, Bryan, Sean and Laura
Dear Troy,
I wish I had words that could comfort you. In a small way, I know what you are feeling. I lost my father almost exactly 2 years ago. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. I used to think I was prepared, he was ill, in a way he really didn't know what was going on, but in every way he did. I feel that there is so much he and I missed. Did I communicate to him how much I loved him? Was I the best daughter that I could be to him? Why did this happen? I am very sad that he did not get to know my youngest son as I was 5 months pregnant when he died. But in another way, I like to think that he picked him out especially for us. Some days are hard, others are easier. The grief of losing a parent is nothing like the grief when losing your other half, your spouse, I am sure. When things are tough down here I ask him to look out for us as it seems like things in one way or another are always tough. Life, I have learned is never easy. Take care of you, the girls, Hyatt is always listening to you and watching over you. I like to think that all the trivial things do not matter and all that shines through is your love for each other. That love is so apparent in your girls. There will be times when you look at them and all you will see is Hyatt. Treasure the moments, as you know too well, they can be short. Your girls are very lucky to have you and you are blessed to have them. In my religion we say that the soul is very close for 40 days after death. Pay attention for she is near by and she is always with you.
Dina Brady
BMAK Mom and HBCP Mom.
Troy,
I don't know you but keep your faith. A year and half ago I lost my sister in-law. My mother and I were just talking how the first year was a dream and it just getting harder as the realty sets in. She had a lot health issue she had Cerbral palsy and mental retardation and seizures. Her seizures were in control. She did not talk she did not walk. But boy when she heard are voice there was always a smile. She did need 24 hour care and was in a home. We saw her on Sunday and she was in great spirts. Tuesday we had got the phone call that she was on her way to fairfax hospital and by the time got there she had gone. No sign of anything before this happened. My mother in-law told me that she was told that she would never make it to 8 years old. She died at 36 years old. There has been so much guilt that we have had after her death. Did the care takers check her like they were spoused to. Did they try everything they could to keep her here. They never gave us a report of the night she passed. 2 months later my cousins father passed a way. He was not sick and was at the doctors 2 weeks ago to get his anual exam told the doctor Im a strong as a bull and he had a heart attack. When all this was happing to me. I just kept on believing in my faith. I was at my lowest point in my life. I new that they were with me were ever I was I talked to them. Then one day I was on my deck with my husband and we were both just in the dumps with all that had happend to us. We both just were talking about everything. It got silent and I was still thinking of them both. So I asked them both if you are happy in heaven send me a shotting star. No sooner did I look up there was a shotting star. After that point I have felt peace and my faith is even stronger. There will be something that will bring you peace. It takes time and there is no time line. What you are feeling is normal. Just remember that you have so many people here praying for you and your family were here to listen and don't be afraid to say how you feel. There is no wrong way. She was a part of you that know one had or will have. She hears you and she is with you.
Have you ever read "Hello from Heaven!" by Bill Guggenheim and Judy Guggenheim? If not, I recommend checking it out at some point. It was a great comfort to me after the death of a loved one.
Dear Troy,
God knew the last words that would be spoken between you and Hyatt. He knew where you would be, both physically and emotionally, during her cardiac arrest. It was--somehow--part of His greater plan, written for you and Hyatt a long time ago. Please don't believe you were powerful enough to have altered it.
Also, consider this...
If God had chosen--instead--to call you Home at a time in which you were frustrated with Hyatt or your daughters, would you want them to question whether or not you knew how much they loved you? Would you want them to beat themselves up for being human...or would you want them to cherish your love and memories of your time together? In your grief, please don't shrink your focus to your last moments with Hyatt. Instead, honor her whole life, and your whole relationship, by focusing on the love you shared.
Last thought--
It's possible that Hyatt's cardiac arrest happened so quickly that she was instantly out of her body. However, if she did reach out, it's quite possible that an angel or deceased loved one was there to take her hand. She was not alone.
Praying for you tonight.
Your Faith is what gives me faith-
You are strong
You are loved
You are healing
slowly very very slowly
but you are healing
She knows what was in your heart
Troy,
You mentioned in Hyatt's eulogy that nausea can precede a heart attack in women. I read that increased anxiety can also precede a female heart attack. Perhaps Hyatt's body, and not you, elevated her frustration level...or made it greater than the situation...?
Either way, I'm praying you find peace. I didn't know Hyatt, but she seemed to have such a happy, gentle, fun-loving, and forgiving spirit. Please honor that spirit by allowing forgiveness for any shortcomings either of you displayed throughout your relationship.
Hyatt loves you and your girls so much...and we are all praying for you and supporting you. Hang in there.
Troy,
My father died when my oldest was 17-months; he never met my middle or youngest child, but BELIEVE...although my son has never met my father, he mentions him often and talks as if he 'does' know him. You see I have worked hard at keeping my father 'alive' for my children (my promise to my father). They all speak of him during random moments as if knew him well. I do not 'know' you, but I have prayed for you often and will continue to do so. I take comfort in knowing that this life is really a blink of the eye....of days here are numbered. Those of us who believe and live accordingly will all be with our Father someday. Until then, be open to Hyatt's presence--believe, even if you can't see.
Love to you and your family.
deb brown
Troy
God understands your feelings and He will give you what you need to travel this path. He knows your pain and He cries each tear with you. He doesn't promise that things will be easy, but does promise that He will be with us each step of the way.
There will come a day when you will feel joy again and when you will feel hope and optimism again. For now....just allow the people God has put around you to feel those things for you and trust that God is carrying you when you can't walk.
Troy, if Hyatt had a moment to realize she was in serious trouble, I am confident as a mom, that her last thoughts would have been of your daughters, and with those thoughts, her unwavering belief that you would care for them and see them through. In marriage, the deep truths outweigh the day to day frustrations. Even if she had been angry enough to lob a rolling pin at you, that's small stuff. You loved her. She loved you. That's the important stuff.
Hang in there Troy! There are so many people thinking of you and your family and praying for you. It is very normal to question everything in the time of great loss. There will be times when all you can do is cry and there will be times when you can think of Hyatt and smile because of the wonderful memories she has blessed you with. Hug your girls. Know that Hyatt is there with you...in them. Lean on those you are close to and let them help you through this tough time. It is okay to cry and feel angry. That is what grief is. We are all sending you strength and love.
Troy, My heart goes out to you and the girls. We are praying for you. Someone gave me this quote when Fr. John Parish passed away and it helps me to remember it from time to time. Hope it will help you. He always signed his notes/cards to us over the past 25 yrs+ of our friendship with the word "Peace". I dont think I ever really knew it's meaning until now...."Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart." I wish you "Peace." God Bless.
You & the girls have been in my prayers. I went to high school with Hyatt & just recently heard about what happened. I've been through a tragic loss too and just know that it is ok to struggle and doubt. Whatever your feeling you can dish it out to God--He will not dissapoint, nor leave you alone.
You & the girls have been in my prayers. I went to high school with Hyatt & recently learned of what happened. I'm so sorry for what you & the girls have gone through. I went through a tragic loss almost 7 years ago & just know that it is ok to struggle. God can handle all of your frustration/doubt/anger--He will not dissapoint or leave you alone.
I know that families can be together forever. That does not make the loss of a family member easier. If faith seems too daunting, hold onto hope.
Troy,
Thinking of you as you and your girls ring in a new year...a year that will hopefully bring some peace and maybe even a few smiles. Praying for you.
Dear Troy,
Just thought to share Creighton University's on line ministries link on grieving you may find helpful. Anything by Joyce Rupp is good there. Give it a try when you are alone and need a little help with grieving. All of your thoughts and feelings when united with Christ is prayer. This is your unique time. Hope this helps: http://www.creighton.edu/CollaborativeMinistry/Grief/
Bob and Pat Geipel
Troy,
Just know that all of us who have been following your blog, have prayed for you and your family , and I hope that you know that God is surrounding Hyatt right now, and that she knows that you loved her so very much. Every single one of us have doubts in our faith walk.. From what I have read about Hyatt, she knew you loved her and the children, and that carried her through. It is in the little things that make a good life, and you had that good life, and your girls will know and remember Hyatt through the love you had for her.
Troy, My heart aches for you and your family. This is impossible to imagine, but someone gave me this quote when we lost Fr. John Parish, NC in 2006 and it helps me to remember it from time to time and I hope it may help you too. He always signed his notes/cards to our family with the word "peace". Don't think I ever really understood it's meaning until now. "Peace... It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart." That is what I wish for you and your family this Holy Season. "PEACE". God Bless you and your Girls.
Troy, Just want you to know you are being prayed for this morning! GarvyS
After the funeral is the time that everything starts to hit you. Those emotions that you didn't have time for while you were praying for her recovery rear up now. It's part of the healing process and you need to allow yourself to feel them to start the healing process. I never knew Hyatt, but as a mother I'm pretty sure that the thing she would want most from you in the future is to be the best parent you can for your children. From everything I've read it sounds like you both had a special kind of love and for that be greatful. Although you have lost her physically, she will always remain in your heart and soul and you will need to keep her a part of your daughter's lives since they were so young to lose her. Rely on your faith, your family and your friends to help ease your pain and continue to talk to her in your mind and dreams.
We have been thinking about you and your family and hoping that this new year brings you peace and continued support from your
"extended family" all over
I hope a memory of your beautiful wife touches you today and makes you smile
You and your family are forever in our prayers and in our hearts
Carol
Troy,
Like so many others on this blog, I have never met you or your family. I have been following your blog since September when I heard of it from a friend of a friend (one of those stories). I have been praying for Hyatt, you, and your girls. I continue to pray that you and the girls can physically feel the presence of our Lord and Savior surround you and hold you when you feel as though you can't lift your head one more day. God gives us many blessing and many emotions, the greatest of which is love. Guilt is not from God. I pray you are able to let the guilt go and cherish the love you and Hyatt share, cherish the love you and your Heavenly Father share, and cherish the love you and your daughters share. Allow yourself to feel the love pouring out to you through this blog, through comments and actions from friends and family, and through little whispers in your ear and in your heart from Hyatt and God. Focus on the incoming love, look for it and listen to it, and the guilt will wash away a little more each day.
You are a wonderful man with a wonderful heart that you have shared with so many. May the Lord bless you and keep you always.
Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
We are all still out here....praying for you and thinking about you and your family on a daily basis. We know you must be struggling....just know that hundreds....maybe thousands of friends and strangers are holding you up in prayer. You are not alone.
Hey Troy, I think about you and your family everyday. Most mornings God puts you on my heart straight away! When it feels like the world won't stop and you just want to scream-"Why is everybody acting like nothing's chaged and moving aroud like nothing's happened? Don't you know my whole world has stopped moving!!!!!!!", Know that there are many, many, folks who are praying for, thinking of, and supporting you from a distance. You are not alone even though none of us can walk through this with you in a literal sense. We are here as you navigate through these days. Praying for you as you remember to breathe and look for and receive all the love that is being sent your way.
I am really worried abou you because you haven't been adding to your blog lately. Please know that the Haymarket / Gainesville community is praying for you and your family and are here to support you through this time. I'm sending a big hug to you from my entire family - you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Troy,
We're still here. We still care. Praying for you tonight. Hang in there.
Just stopping by to let you know you're in my prayers especially today.
We continue to pray for you and your daughters, Troy. Faith is indeed believing, even when you can't see or feel. So many are praying for you. One tiny inch at a time. Give your daughters a big hug and a bigger kiss!
Troy, Praying for you and the girls....I can't even imagine what you must be going through. We are still thinking about and praying for you and your family.
Troy,
I just wanted you to know we still think of you daily and I keep you all in my thoughts in prayers. I hope that you are keeping your faith and finding some comfort in knowing Hyatt is home and watching over you and the girls.
All my love to you and all of Hyatt's family.
-A BMAK Mom
Thinking of you and the girls on Palm Sunday and wishing you well.
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