5 Months

Really? Has it been that long?

I've been having more 'up' days than 'down' days lately.

I took our anniversary off from work and spend some time at her grave. That was a pretty tough day. There is constantly so much that I want to share with her. So many tough challenges and good results at work, so many little things the kids do, just the smell of springtime.... I found myself describing how good naps feel on rainy days to Sid this past weekend... how mama and I used to take naps on rainy weekend days. So many things I miss...

Sid is a sweet as ever... she can do so many things by herself now... but I still get random "I love you daddy's"... that just melt my heart. I told her that her smile lights up my world ... and she gives me this sweet, bright , smile... and boy does it ever. She is almost done with her first year in pre-school. At home we are teaching her fun things like letter sounds, sounding out words, rhyming, alliteration, and addition. She is getting really good at writing "S"'s. I'm hoping that she'll sign my fathers day card all by herself this year. She's such a big girl ... and such a sweetie.

Bek is miss smiley... even at 3am. She is running and talking up a storm. If I could just get a translator so that I could understand it. She has a few words: hi, ball, puppy, Sidney, gmama ... it is so neat to hear her voice. She is working on her molars ... and she is eating a bunch of solid foods. She is pretty much all smiles - unless she is complaining about dinner and smearing food in her hair. She folds her hands for prayers before eating and she tries to say "Alleluia"...

I'd love to see Hyatt marveling at her two babies. That is probably when it hits me the most - she put so much love into Sid and Bek she'd be so proud of them...

Go kiss your kids, and tell them how special they are... go hug your lover and tell them how much they mean to you. It's been too long ...

Troy.